I had a dream last night that I was pregnant. I was 8months along, and got pregnant in January. At first it started I was like "omg Charles I'm having contractions!" And he was like "omg" And then we were magically in the hospital. And then after two "contractions" which felt like cramps (HMM, WONDER WHY.) Charles was suddenly a doctor and after conferring with the nurse it was time for a C-Section. To which I said, "LOLz. No." So then I started to wander around and think of someone to call and tell. I ran into Jen C. And Erin W. outside doing landscaping, said hello and then went back in and while I was walking back to my room something occurred to me. May is only the 5th month in the year. And then come to think of it I wasn't that big ( My belly had suddenly shrunk. It was bigger when it started.) Then I realized that I'd bled every month and I was on birth control so it was pretty impossible. So then I had to figure out how break it to everyone and save some face. I mean I knew Chuck was gonna be happy either way but it was weird. Then I woke up cause it was ridiculous.
I've made some decisions regarding work. And essentially until I find a new job, I'm just going to go through the motions. But I'm not going to be putting myself out there anymore. Cause what did it get me? Months worth of frustration. My supervisor is an incredible disappointment. On both accounts. I thought we would of had some sort of loyalty, but no. I'm discounted for being a girl. I'm good for counter and counter ops. When really I can fix computers. But next week I have 7 hours. Which means I wasn't important enough to be one of the lucky people to not get ass fucked. So occasionally I get a little angry, but I'm trying to look at the bright side. I have lots of time to do things that need to get done. Like the landscaping I've been talking to everyone about. Finish up my massive amount of laundry and finish sorting it. Love on my Charles. :) Regardless, they've sucked my soul and any will I had to be worth anything in that business. GJ!
With all this bullshit and my mother being the freeloader money is tight. It really stresses me out. Having to bargain with what we really need against what we can hold off on getting. I think that's what has been really bumming me out lately. And everything was just some salt in a wound, so its all amplified. We'll get through it though. Charles at least has people he can depend on.
I did really well last semester. Two B+s and an A. :) I was curious how I was gonna do in my WRT class, considering I half did the blogs. They were all wow related so I doubt he was interested in reading them anyway. But he gave me a 3.9 which well... :P Is almost a 4. Maybe it had to do with the fact I did improve on my papers AND did most of the reading assignments. And maybe cause he said he'd read one, but never did? Not sure :P Woot woo!
Today I close, and then tomorrow I open. And Charles is on opposite shifts. So we'll only get to see each other at night. :) But we have Sunday off and I think instead of going to breakfast we're gonna spend just us time. Cause lately we've been hangin' out with people and not really getting "us" time like we're used to. We've been pretty inseparable since we... "met." I joke with him about when we were first talking and hanging out. And how I was on academic probation, staying up til at least 3am almost everyday for three weeks in September. The one night I was going to sleep early was the night he had his incidents with the skunks and I had to go get him. (Not cause he asked, because I felt it was necessary and important.) Is this still the honeymoon period? I don't think so. I think he's just amazing over all that I don't need to be bogged down nor broadcasting whatever I may find that he does that I don't like. It's not important. I love him :)